The fear knocked on my door & I answered it!

I recently finished my pregnancy book and I have to say the descriptions have thoroughly scared the crap out of me. I am really, really dreading labor. Nothing about it (other than receiving my cute little baby boy) sounds at all pleasant and I don’t understand why Mother Nature has made it so difficult for women to deliver children into this world. You’d think somehow with evolution, our bodies would somehow learn to adjust and there wouldn’t be as much pain involved. Everything involved with having a child is frightful from the beginning to the aftermath.

I probably shouldn’t have read these chapters right before bed because I had hard time falling asleep and sleeping well. I just got really anxious and nervous. For example, I didn’t know that the epidural can give you the shakes and you might feel extremely cold, so the nurse will pile blankets on you. I didn’t know that you’ll bleed for about 4-6 weeks after the labor. I didn’t know that you might have to sit on a pillow for a few days because of how sore you’ll be. Combined with trying to take care of a newborn too? Its bad enough that you have to deal with 9 months of getting out of shape, getting fat, swollen, backaches, leg cramps and being sick to every smell there is in the world.

Now I don’t understand how people can have friends and family in the room with them during labor. Going through the contractions, having random medical personnel poke at you, and right after delivering, the woman’s still recovering — can you imagine how annoying it would be to have these people chatting away like it was nothing?

A friend of mind told me a funny little thing the other day. She said throughout her whole pregnant everyone kept asking "how are you feeling" and "Do you need anything" I get that all the time right now so I understand what she's talking about. Then she delivered her baby and everyone just came in and kept asking "Wheres the baby" and "Hows the baby" She told me she was kind of shocked that she just pushed a baby out and not one person
(other than the hospital staff) asked about how she was. haha she said that's when you realize you are a mommy because its at that moment that everything is about them and you are not in the picture anymore. I have heard alot of people tell me this and I do believe all of them.

I am so ready to have my little one, but why does it have to be so scary. I don't want to hear anyone tell me its not that bad bc for 7 months I have watch a baby story 2 times a day on TLC and it looks pretty bad on there. I cringe when I watch that show, but its something I can't stop watching. Its very interesting to see how different each birth is. I start my birth classes next Thursday and although I am excited to go to the class I am terrified at what I might learn bc that's just one more thing to scare the shit out of me!!

Shannan

Funny picture of the day

I don't think its a disease haha someone doesn't know how to read at this book store!